*First a comment:
Yesterday, while at work, my mind drifted to the “Band” I was in, during the mid 1970s. This was before moving out of Florida and meeting Sylvia. That Band was professional. We played a lot of Gigs. The Guitarist was Juliard-trained. The female Singer was black, had a great voice and usually captured the attention of every audience we played for. I was in that Band for 2-years. Then, I met a girl during one of those Gigs. We dated for a short Time and then got married. As soon as we got married, I “did the right thing”… I quit the Band and “settled down”. Within 6-months after that, the Band broke-up (for other reasons). About 2-years later, we got divorced and, shortly after that, I moved to New Mexico, where I met Sylvia.
Today, when I thought about all of this, the “ebb and flow” of the “TimeLines”, and all the possibilities they may bring became too much for me. I was on the Loading Dock at work when this happened and I just wanted to walk into the empty Tractor Trailer and SCREAM!
What made this overwhelming for me was that I had added-in a sprinkle of… “What if I could go back in Time and change things? What would I do?”
So here’s the problem:
- If I didn’t get married to that girl, I would have remained in that Band. Most likely, the Band would have not broken-up and would have gone on and maybe become famous. (The Guitarist and Singer had already been hired to Write and Record a “Jingle” for a condominium company. So the entire Band was used to record it at a professional Recording Studio. That Jingle even played on the radio… back in the 70s. So I’m sure we would still be together today… recording Albums and touring.)
- Now there’s the matter of the “me and Sylvia” Timeline… “IF” I had remained in that Band, I would not have moved to New Mexico… and this means I would never had met Sylvia. (Yes, I realize “all things are possible” and various events could happen, which would have brought me and Sylvia together but, looking at all the factors, this doesn’t seem even slightly possible. Remember, Sylvia was married when I met her. It took a lot of Time make us both realize that we belong together. (Sylvia got a divorce long before either of us realized we were “meant to be”.) It took several months of me buying a Synthesizer and playing keyboards for 2 of the Music Shows she wrote for the “Science Of Mind” Church she was the Music Director of… and, it took her and I several months of talking about the possibility of forming a Band together and bringing in 3 other people to participate in this. So “IF” I had remained in that Florida Band and met Sylvia during a Tour, there wouldn’t have been enough Time for us to realize there were “sparks” between us. (I met Sylvia at the end of 1980 and I proposed at the end of 1986. So this wasn’t an instant decision, by either of us, on any level.)
So, I wanted to SCREAM because I want to play Drums in a professional Band… BUT, I also want “My” Sylvia. If I had to pick one or the other, I would (of course) pick “Sylvia”… above anything and everything. (Of course, the ultimate “package” is for me to be in a professional Band WITH Sylvia… and this is what we are working on. It’s just taking a long Time to get there.)
Anyway, my question to everyone reading this is…
What if you were in a similar situation — 2 very powerful “events” / “people” / “opportunities” in your life but one of them stops for some reason. Looking back, this is a bit sad but you’re happy because THAT situation steered you to the other, better situation. You now have access to a “Time Machine”:
- Would you go back in Time and change things?… knowing that changing things will bring you the situation you lost but would also disconnect your from the situation you gained?
Something to think about.
Today, while still at work, I remembered to think about “Time” and what I wrote about it last week (or the week before)…
- I mentioned that my “projects” (working, shopping, etc.) seem to move through Time at a standard pace. Once they are complete, however, it’s as if I’m out of that “bubble” and Time moves very fast.
While thinking about this today (near the end of our work-day), I felt (tested, sensed) the “Time” around me, at that moment, and everything seemed normal — a “normal” speed of Time. Then, in my mind, I went back through some of the things I had done at work, in the previous hours. I knew the Loading Dock crew (which includes “me”) unloaded a Tractor Trailer today but when I thought about those actions, my memory of them contained no “substance”. It felt as if I was “told” I had helped unload a Trailer today but I have no real memory of doing it.
Later, Sylvia and I Clocked-Out and left the building. When we got into our car, I went back into my mind, to see if I could sense our work-day… but it seemed like we had simply driven to work, got out of the car, got back into the car and there we sat… told that we had put-in a complete work day.
In this 1-hour, 11-minute video, Simon Parkes answers audience questions and provides information from his unique, “raised by Extraterrestrials”, perspective… “IF” his information is real.
I’m including this because it’s a “180-degree turnaround” from what Clif High talked about (included in our 12/16/18 Post). Both provide many details on the “Mantis” (“Mantid”) Race.
Here’s the link: