*First a few comments:
I think I previously mentioned… 2 or 3 weeks ago, I needed to get Miter Box out of our closet, in order to cut a piece of wood I was using as a stand for our “Roland System-1m” synthesizer. In doing so, I re-discovered a metal box containing important papers and photos that Sylvia had placed there.
I saw some of the photos and checked the CD I had made many months ago, and realized I had not scanned-in those photos. Although I still can’t bear to look at Sylvia’s photos, because it just makes me cry, I know that those photographs will deteriorate at some point and it would be nice to know they are at least in the computer.
Since “there are no accidents”, I’m thinking today is “Reflection” day for me. Maybe it has something to do with my Birthday being tomorrow and maybe this energy is coming from My Sylvia saying “hello, Happy Birthday from your 1 true Love” or maybe a part of me is just wrapping-up some energies, in order to move closer to that opening in the “Veil”. I don’t know.
(I’m very sad just writing this out…) At one point, I saw a black & white photo of My Sylvia, which must have been taken when she was in her thirties. She is SOOO incredibly beautiful and just the thought of not being able to (right now) stare into her timeless eyes, just made me start crying.
So I looked through the photos again today and after several minutes of not knowing what to do or if I could get myself to scan them without dropping tears on them… I realized I must have sat there on the floor, holding those photos in my hand and staring at the carpet for about a half-hour.
In the end, I realized I can’t do it. I can’t get myself to scan those photos right now. I can almost remember finding those photos shortly after Sylvia crossed-over. At that Time, the hole in my Soul was much more raw and I can almost remember the Meltdown I had by just “looking” at those paper memories.
So, today, just like then, I put everything back into that metal box. Maybe in another
- I can’t say it. I can’t even “write” it. I can’t simply say “…in another 290-weeks maybe I can scan them then” because it would mean I’ll still be here, in a pool of tears, without My Sylvia.
What I did find, in that box, that I “think” I can include here (without breaking down) are 2 papers that we wrote to each other. I’m pretty sure we wrote these to each other right after I proposed… on December 24, 1986:
Christmas — the birthday love
showing to the outside world.
A ring is a circle.
Ours has two hearts
You gave me “wife”
Our Soul is a circle
Joined as one
with two hears
You are my life
Thank you very
precious special one
Two – Hearts, One Flame
Surrounding the pulse of time
Racing and beating as one
This is the moment of destiny
For all the planets
and all the lifetimes
have gathered for this day
when you and I
beat as one
and the Gods in the heavens
smile and say
Peace on Earth…
Sylvia and I met in October 1980.
I proposed on December 24, 1986.
We were married on August 1, 1987.
Although I’m still EXTREMELY angry that Sylvia is not “currently” “physically” here… and even though I’m still “spitting fire”, because of all this, Sylvia made sure I would be provided for (through various jobs) and that my energies would be aligned and not allowed to short-circuit into a ball of total madness where I would just drive off the nearest cliff.
Both of her actions, the 1st, within minutes of her crossing-over, and the 2nd, a few hours later, have given me some peace and comfort… knowing that Sylvia and I will indeed be reunited with each other within my lifetime… without “me” crossing-over.
Sifting through the various lies, truths and half-truths, that I read about every night, those “actions” of Sylvia’s have helped me get through that confusion.
Today, Cobra simply Posted 2 short videos on the “Compression Breakthrough”, which is what he refers to as the “Event”. Both are uplifting videos. The 1st looks to be a music video and the 2nd looks to be a movie Trailer but I’m not completely sure.
My comments: Is Cobra trying to tell us something? Does this mean the “Event” is near?
These videos don’t seem to instruct us on what the “Event” is or what to do when it arrives. These short movies seem to celebrate the great changes that we are all about to experience.
Here’s the link: